For the longest time I have felt like I have nothing going for me because I sit and compare myself to everyone else. In my brain, my life is less than because I’m not going out and doing things…what things you might ask??? I have no fucking idea, but in my mind I should be doing “things” and not what I’m actually doing. Comparison really is the thief of joy so I’m here to help those of us in that mindset to try to change things around.

For me, I think the fact that I am semi retired makes me feel like I should be doing more with my life and that is something I deal with every single day. At 31 years old I have lived more life than a lot of people my age but on the day to day I feel like I have not and am not doing enough to be worthy of literally anything. When you’re feeling like you haven’t done enough, make a list of what you have accomplished and you’ll quickly see that you’re doing just fine…

2 marathons, 5 half marathons, a bachelors degree, a 9 year career in the Army with 1 deployment and 1 rotation, a masters degree, a virtual assistant certification, 3 years working as a virtual assistant, 19 shows/festivals, 1 powerlifting meet, 2 homes owned, 2 cars owned, 3 dogs…that’s my list and I’m sure I’m missing some things in there but you get the picture. None of these things make me better or worse than anyone else, but it helps to see everything listed out.

If you list everything out and feel like you could do more (which is what happens to me every time I do this exercise) start to look for things that you can incorporate into your life. For me, I am trying to find some more hobbies that I can enjoy and double points if they involve my doggos. I’m not saying that you have to do more by any means, but if in your mind you feel like you could do more, find things that interest you.

For me, coloring has always been my go to but this year I really want to hike more and explore more of Virginia since I am now a resident, and I would really like to learn how to crochet…I can do a chain but I can’t for the life of me figure out how to turn it around. I am also working on being more of a homemaker…since I bought a house and it’s all mine, I am much more aware of what/when things need to be cleaned (same with my car).

It’s okay to be semi retired and it’s okay to take more time than you thought to figure out what you want to do with the time you’re given. I’m saying that for me, because I need to hear it.

If you read this whole thing, bless you. I want to be consistent with my blog and for some posts that means I will probably just word vomit but that’s okay because if it helps, it helps.

I hope you’re having the best weekend, and if anything in here resonates with you, let me know.