Imposter

Wake up, do your job, workout, have a social life, do something great, make more money, have nice things….the list for what we think we should be doing goes on forever. The amount of time you spend doing those activities eats little bites out of your day and in the back of your mind you feel like there’s something more you should be doing, you have to make sure you do all these incredible things, but in reality just being you is enough. We live in a culture that tells us we need to do more, be more, get more, more, more, more, but when is it ENOUGH. For me, my diagnosis of bi polar and adhd threw me for a whirlwind that I’m still navigating and I have the biggest case of imposter syndrome this side of the Atlantic. My problems aren’t bad, others have it worse, I should be doing something more, I should be doing something else, I should be helping more people…..where in those statements am I? Why am I not thinking of myself while I’m out here trying to do the most for what other people believe I should be doing….that’s a me problem.

The problem of feeling like you have to give every second of your life to everyone else, in my mind it makes me sound selfish because you know what, it’s not all about me! I sit here day in and day out and feel like I am living a lie because my life is not turning out the way I thought it would, but in reality this is all happening for me. I have a purpose and it’s to really dig deep and help people who feel like I do…who feel like their never quite enough while quite literally doing all the things all the time. I want to create a community here in this space that allows people to openly share their thoughts and feelings and receive validation…sounds super snowflake like but I promise just taking the time to feel your feelings makes all the difference. I’m on this journey with you and we are aren’t going to make it out alive, but we can do the best we can right here, right now to live and be in the moment. You are enough, you are doing enough and the way that others perceive your actions is on them (unless it’s something like murder because yea we all think that’s bad or at least I hope we do). The only thing we can control is the person we are in this second….you’re not an imposter, you have a purpose and you have something of value to share with this world, it just takes a minute to get your shit straight and really go after it.

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